Sunset and Evening Star

Sleeping Pills and off the phone

2011-05-18T08:12:00.000-07:00

Dear Lu,

   You looked so pale. So sick. Get some more sleep and back your bio clock to normal.

   Here's some suggestion:
   Like what the title says.

I would like to add some blush to your face,
Sunset and Evening Stars

Mental Under

2011-05-16T10:07:00.000-07:00

Dear Lu,

How are you?
You used to reject answering this question, I remember. You said you tend to say "I'm ok" whoever&whenever been asked, regardless of how shitty is in the situation. Of course you wouldn't like this, for someone hate any kind of formalization in life.

I saw you finishing enrollment and keep going between office and lab place so many time today. I hope things are going well and fulfilling your every expectation in the end.

Even when you are busy, you didn't seem to be upset. But how? what happened just now? You are not facing upcoming tests as you should be, you are not calm inside. Was it because of too many pressure these days? Was it too many things to do that you don't know where to start? Or was it because of T's email, making you feeling being blamed even though it was not your fault at all? Well, I don't think the last contribute too much for you though.

Youko had a contact with you on 13/11/10. What a surprise! You told me you had lost her contact. I'm happy for you.

Listening to music makes you calm, and so does playing music. You know this effect more than me, don't you? I know you are practicing Hallelujah, but today I found this E.T piano cover by Tiffany Alvord, it sounds beautiful. I hope you can like it, too!

What is this? Under deeply buried, I saw a large blackhole that does not emit any light what ever you do, keeping everything to yourself. Stress, fear and insecureness. How would you release? Shall we go somewhere new? Shall we try something? Shall we? Just you and me. So that you don't need to be afraid been judged or pay attention to anyone else, except enjoying yourself. Shall we?

Things well get better. I believe. Because you are trying so hard.

With pray,
Sunset and Evening Stars

No one is there

2011-05-15T06:53:00.000-07:00

Dear L,

It seems no one is actuarially listening to you. And so do you don't listen to others.
Filled up with their own stuff, no one will really care what you are thinking, what you are feeling.

So I'm writing to you, because I care about you. I want, to hear from you. And I'll be right here listening.

Here,
You have so many friends. Yes, you do. You are always smiling and love to laugh. You step with rhythm that look as if you are dancing, happy and light.
But is that real or trying to be?

You know,
Friendship is difficult thing as you get older. You two are friends because you are related, doing same thing, on the same page. What if you are no longer in their sight, been associated with completely different thing for 6 months, can you two be as close as before? You never know. Though, I think you already have your answer.

So then,
You made a call to your mum. She was on her meeting somewhere away from home. It was Saturday, but she was still busy. You couldn't talk much about how your feel these days, about how you were depressed when you found out you couldn't really go to US because schools suddenly changed the schedule for fall subjects. It was your dream, I knew it. Why you couldn't tell her more? Tell her you are tired, and miss her? Maybe the signal was bad, maybe you knew she was busy. When you even rejected opening yourself to her, who else is left?

See,
When you are looking back, who are following? Who are beside?

But please,
Please do not forget me. I'm yours. I'll be your mum, when you need a shelter; I'll be your man when you need a hug; I'll be your teacher, when you need a direction; I'll be your brother, when you need a fight. Most of all, I am and always will be your friend. A true one, no doubt.

Hence now,
this title that I named after Nico's music. Seems a place to end.

Love,
Sunset and Evening Stars